i like it this way. i’d prefer more sleep though. that’s the odd part. why can i only (well, when i say only that’s when a story is followed) zoom through paper writing and idea formulating funness when i’m doing an all-nighter? the night before the paper is due. lame. can i just let myself make own deadlines from now on? can these deadlines always and forever (but of course, with wiggle room) be two days before the other person (be it a professor, a friend, a whatever) has chosen the deadline to be? pretty please with a cherry on top? okay. good. done.

now back to writing this paper. this is good practice for even bigger paper writing – i.e. my (honors?) thesis. no more doing these things hours before they are due.

I was tired earlier in the evening but now am wide awake. sucks that my cassie day partner-in-crime is asleep already.
my choice has been made. even though it wasn’t truly a choice. choice mongers? munchers? mongrels? our society is all hyped up on CHOICES. freedom is in. paths directed by truth are out.
In the past [...]

yeah right. it’s really not me. or a part of me. a large or small party. really.
wad of cash has been passed over. it’s easy to use cash as a symbol.
needs needs needs. i need to need them. well, i already have them. i need to recognize them. come out, come out, please!
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it’s four in the morning. and all i got in my head is a song about balls. my ego does not understand this ludicrous ball joke. gaahhhhh.
“the effect of letting go has for a time made me feel like I’ve “come out” to the world in the same way as a 1950’s housewife who has [...]

Sitting in the lovely Java Joint working on a computer that has always had the wrong time. I know this. Came to the library and printed class handouts on a computer. Thought the time was wrong on this one too. 10.47am! That must mean it’s 11.47am! I have my oral history interview at noon! [...]